a fool

as time goes on I shall be more so able to convince myself. And of course I shall make many blunders before I find out how to preach, and that preaching is into myself and not out into the seeming world round about me.

that is, find out what words to say to myself, the inner talking and feeling that improves my feelings about what I perceive, and by that improvement know what "right" things to do, for it is a very difficult task to unlearn and stay open to unlearning. I see all that correct internal content as clear as 

daylight, but, listen, who does not make mistakes? An yet, you know, all are making for the same goal, all are 

striving in the same direction anyway, from the sage to the lowest robber, only by different roads. It is an old 

truth, but this is what is new: I cannot go far wrong. For I have seen the truth; I have seen and I know that 

people can be beautiful and happy without losing the power of living on earth. I will not and cannot believe 

that evil is the normal condition of mankind. And it is just this faith of mine that they laugh at. But how can I 

help believing it? I have seen the truth--it is not as though I had invented it with my mind, I have seen it, seen 

it, and the living image of it has filled my soul for ever. I have seen it in such full perfection that I cannot believe 

that it is impossible for people to have it. And so how can I go wrong? I shall make some slips no doubt, and 

shall perhaps talk in second-hand language, but not for long: the living image of what I saw will always be with 

me and will always correct and guide me. Oh, I am full of courage and freshness, and I will go on and on if it 

were for a thousand years! 

Do you know, at first I meant to conceal the fact that I corrupted them, but that 

was a mistake--that was my first mistake! But truth whispered to me that I was lying, and preserved me and 

corrected me. But how establish paradise--I don't know, because I do not know how to put it into words. After 

my dream I lost command of words. All the chief words, anyway, the most necessary ones. But never mind, I 

shall go and I shall keep talking, I won't leave off, for anyway I have seen it with my own eyes, though I cannot 

describe what I saw. But the scoffers do not understand that. It was a dream, they say, delirium, hallucination. 

Oh! As though that meant so much! And they are so proud! A dream! What is a dream? And is not our life a 

dream? I will say more. Suppose that this paradise will never come to pass (that I understand), yet I shall go on 

preaching it. And yet how simple it is: in one day, in one hour everything could be arranged at once! The chief 

thing is to love others like yourself, that's the chief thing, and that's everything; nothing else is wanted--you will 

find out at once how to arrange it all. And yet it's an old truth which has been told and retold a billion times--

but it has not formed part of our lives! The consciousness of life is higher than life, the knowledge of the laws 

of happiness is higher than happiness--that is what one must contend against. And I shall. If only everyone 

wants it, it can be arranged at once.

And I tracked down that little girl . . . and I shall go on and on!